I was trained for this path, but is this my true path?

All along I thought I was helping you.  But, was I?  All my upbringing trained me for this path.  But is this my true path?  I sit again fed up and frustrated because yet again you are nasty to me and hurl abuse.  But is this my true path?  Am I not supposed to help you since you are after all my family?  Yet, I sit and think can I take anymore of this?  Is this really up to me?  I know I was trained for this path.  But is this my true path?  And why would I  want to keep on causing my own suffering?  Does it really make me feel good after many tries? What am I getting out of it you might ask? Well I get to feel I have some purpose in the world I guess and it gives me something to do.  But is this my true path?  Okay but what is really going on, any ideas?  Well I suppose when I am concentrating on your mess I do not have to look at how I cause my own suffering.  Mistakenly I think it is you, for you do cause me a lot of frustrating it seems.  However, is it really you that causes my suffering?  Do I not choose to sit in your mess despite the fact that all my attempts to show you the many door ways out are ignored? Urm? I guess I do.  So what is in all this choosing, what is really going on?  We'll if I stop going into your mess I cannot guarantee you will change but isn't it true that with all my attempts that you are not changing by any of my efforts anyway?  Could it be that all this training actually trained me for the wrong path? 

So you ask what is my true path?  What is my real work?  Well the good news is that its all in my own hands because every choice I make to invest in my daily life creates my daily life.  And there are many projects that are ready to accept my energy and use it to expand.  One of  those projects is me.  All I have to do is take my eyes of YOU and place them on to me.  But, is this my true path?  Absolutely!!!!!!!!!!  Invest in what is ready to expand and invest in what is in my hands.  Despite being trained for the wrong path, I can always get on the right path and that path is the one that is ready to expand........................